Wasting Away

unconditional acceptance

I just got done reading all the feed back and after I was threw laughing at your comments about my spelling and word choice and figured I would grace you with my presents and give you all a gift.  Unconditional acceptance is something I am trying to perpetuate in my life.  As many of you have accepted me into your lives along with all my faults I am here to thank you.  As many of you know the tragedy that has recently shocked our lives has really opened my eyes to the importance of living life with the right perspective.  I truly believe that we all have our place in the circle of life ... can I have some mufasa back ground music please?  And I just wanted to say that although Ms. Boss stunk it up today I love her anyway and thought to myself that it doesn't matter how bad she may have screwed up her presentation what matters is that she tried her best and that the AVID program is a great choice and the people behind it are committed, willing, and ready to get it off on the right foot.  Once again I thank you all for your unconditional love and acceptance and I hope we all have a great second semester.  Highlands 90210 for life ... love you all !!!

What Really Matters?

Today I was given the chance to show some compassion for a fellow colleague who I don't always agree with professionally.  In my attempt to reach out and touch some one, I realized that in our own self righteous ways we are so quick to judge the people around us not truly understanding the circumstances we all face.  How well do any of us know each other with the exception of the married couples.  All 26 of you.  But really we see each other as professionals and don't get me wrong I have much love and appreciation for a lot of you but how well do I really know you.  Example would be that teacher who puts on a happy face and teaches to the best of their ability but is suffering at home with family problems, msb, and any other problem we don't know about. Today's experience just opened my eyes and reminded me that we truly don't know what everyone is feeling and who are we to judge.  

This is just some weak attempt at getting back in the loop and a weak attempt at killing time as I sit here bored at home surrounded by f&*kin Korean shows any way I gotta go piece be with all of you and happy belated Thanks "Giving"

Dare to care?

This is the question that I ponder over on a daily basis.  After all am I fighting the good fight or am I just fighting to fight.  I am beginning to think that professionalism is a waist of time.  As I sit here on the elective side of things I begin to wonder just what the heck are we here for.  If you teach a subject that is to difficult, align it with the standards, and maybe even throw in some technology you better give everyone "A' s and B's"  because the second they (students) find out that your class is difficult you will be asked to leave.  So I say screw it let everyone pass with an "A" ask them to spread the word and "BAM" job security.  Since I'm still on the elective side of the fence, how about when that stupid wanna be "real teacher" has something to say about best practices.  What does he know he doesn't even teach a real subject.  Wow that may be perceived as a cry out for some pity.  No you "real teachers" it is my sarcastic a$$ wondering why we bother with teachers who don't give a rip about anything.  It is hypocritical of our "leadership" to be cutting classes and telling teachers they are no longer wanted because they are not popular and at the same time allowing teachers who don't give a flying fart to stay on board and teach the minimum at best and do a crappy job at that.  I just hope that our "inner circle" aka.  planning committee does not approve of this or my respect level has just gone down a few notches.  Wait ... hold on ... forget what you just read ... ... ... if this info gets into the wrong hands I might be gone next after all I am just an elective.  Hence the title "Dare to care?"  Is it all worth it?  I am beginning to wonder ... search your feelings Luke let go of the force and join me on the darkside!!!

The End Is Near ... no way to many loose ends

To all those that I may offend I apologize in advance.  You ever wonder what the difference is between our teacher leaders and our "real leaders" (admin. in case you were wondering).  I know it is a lot of action and well thought out initiatives but aside from the intelligent well thought out roll-outs.  I've been tossing this one around and I am beginning to wonder if our incomp. leader is really just us in twenty or even thirty years.  No more wind left in our sales just the insight to know that no matter what we do nothing pans out all that well.  We have this new great program called AVID coming up and let me tell you it is wonderful.  It will work miracles for those involved if we do this one correctly and with the right people.  Sound familiar!  Before I start rambling and forget to make my point, does anyone remember what teaming is really for?  How about co-teaching, Have we forgotten about that great idea (in theory)?  I am extremely curious to even hear about the two man team concept because I personally feel that the two many team idea is honestly the best one yet. (NO BS!)  Oh wait I forgot about the return of the standards wall.  I am finding it hard to believe but not so long ago we tried to streamline our efforts and do a few things well.  After the absence of leadership, once again we find ourselves under inexperienced teacher leaders and although I think they are the most insightful teachers I have worked with I feel the lack of authority combined with the lack of accountability has led us down a path that if we are not careful we will be back to the same old madness we have been trying to steer away from.  

How does a "team" go from one of the most respected to dismantled in three years.  Yes, we can blame the cancer cluster, or even the consistent change of our co-teacher (every year for the past three), or even we could stretch it to say the other teams have stepped up their game so much that we have cracked under pressure.  I have a different theory its call the "to many mind theory".  We have had constant change and no support and for lack of a better word "focus".  But wait lets not fix that problem lets take two strong "team" teachers and wait the councilor too and leave them with Ms. resistance and Captain Cancer to take over.  Or better yet just dissolve that team and let the madness spread onto other teams.  At least the AVID team will have a chance to succeed.  To some up this rant, I wonder if our teacher leaders have thought about all the different loose ends we currently have but why bother there is no one to answer to and no "admin" to monitor the madness after all the ideas are all great and I truly mean it.

Love and Aloha

Ludacrawcity

PS.  H.I.S for life

Has The Emperor Met His Match

Holes in the ship can be patched.  Shave your head bald can grow back.  Piss your wife off can be fixed w/ four play.  Forget your lunch money can always borrow.  Get one sh**y boss can always get T and B to fix it right up.  Get one team member who just wants to reck SH** up and you might as well tap.  For 3 yrs. we have bobbed and weaved (check spelling) we have dodged bullets, have even pulled the spoons out of our backs but I think I have finally been put in that  choke hold that I can not get out of ... (gasp ... gasp ... gasp) I have to tap before I die.  The wind is no longer in my sail, no more water in my taro patch, no more soup in my saimin.  I am done...

Are you kidding me! we cannot give in that easy.  I cannot believe I am still thinking about comments made by someone whos opinion does not matter.  I say we start by bringing out all the pretenders and asking them to look in the mirror and to tell us what they see.  And if they don't respond with "I see pride, I see power, I see a bad a** mother who won't take no crap from nobody" coolrunnings 1990 then I say we asking with the most compassionate  voice to please leave.  

love and aloha 

intoxicated ludicrawcity 

Out Of The Closet

I come before you all pledging my devotion to the chaos and heartless acts of the lazy.  No more is it about the kids, and their quest for knowledge but rather it is about the pretenders and all that they stand for.  Fake it until people believe in you and then laugh as you do nothing.  Its not what you know but what they think you know that really counts.  Remember the Darkside and always always believe in the ludacrawcity that surrounds us.

love and aloha 

ludacrawcity